I have papers to write, resumes that need editing and sending out,
summer jobs to find, emails to respond to, and scholarships to apply
for… the list goes on forever, and it will never end. I will be
perpetually grasping my to-do list, crossing off one for every three
added. Nothing is ever complete or finished. This planet keeps spinning
and life keeps moving even when I need it to stop the most.
On April 11th I swear I felt a pause. And as I re-read the words trying to make sense of them “…it’s never easy to lose a friend” …as one life here, on this spinning mass ended, mine changed forever.
On April 11th I swear I felt a pause. And as I re-read the words trying to make sense of them “…it’s never easy to lose a friend” …as one life here, on this spinning mass ended, mine changed forever.
Losing Stirling has opened my eyes, has slowed my time, and has changed my mind about everything I was certain of. During the hours and days and weeks that followed I was born again; suddenly more desperate than ever before to impact the lives of others in a powerful and positive way.
Stirling changed lives in a powerful and positive way whether he knew it or not, whether he wanted to or not. It wasn’t something he could control. His grin contagious, his kindness and friendliness infectious; everyone who met him, even just once, couldn’t help but be moved.
For the rest of my life, every time I reach out with kindness to someone I do not know …it is Stirling reaching through me.
Every time I offer a huge smile to someone who needs it, it is Stirling’s huge goofy smile shining.
And on May 12th, when I am dancing with all my best friends letting the music move me… I know that Stirling will be right there with us, dancing too. Free from papers, jobs, resumes, and scholarships. Free to just smile and dance.
Thanks to Kenny for editing